Why today?

I'm used to February, April, August and November being really, really hard times for me. They all play a rather significant role in my pregnancy with my daughter. However, May usually doesn't get to me this badly, at least nto about this situation. So why today? Why am I having such a hard time simply getting through the day because my heart aches so badly because I miss her so, so much? I don't understand it. She came to me in a dream last night, and she was so beautiful, so perfect...so full of smiles and love and life that when I woke up I almost expected to find that the past 9 1/2 years were a bad dream and find her there in bed beside me. But no. I woke up alone, with tears running down my cheeks. I love when she comes to see me and lets me know that she's ok, but God, it hurts to have to let her go again. Whoever said that time heals all wounds obviously never lost a child. My heart will forever be broken, and these tears will never dry. I can't believe it will be 10 years in August since I lost her...

I love you, Trinity Rose. With all my heart and soul, forever. Mommy misses you more than she can ever express. Come back soon, my darling angel.