*sigh*

I'm trying not to be completely bitter, I really am...but God, if she was just going to go back to the bitch who broke her heart, why did she have to bother trying to ruin my life? It pisses me off to no end...while we were together, such as it were, she kept thanking me over and over again for "saving" her from her heart break...and then she goes running right back to "her" after she breaks my heart and damn near destroys me.

And I know what everyone would think if I complained about this out loud, too. That I'm simply jealous because I'm alone. No, I'm not jealous. As I said a few posts back, I'm not unhappy being alone, and I sure as fuck would never wish to be back with her. But it does seriously make me question whether there was ever anything between us or not, or if maybe I was just something to occupy her time until her "real love" was ready to commit. Bleh. Whatever. Honestly, they deserve each other. They're both whores who live to hurt others in order to make themselves feel powerful. I truly hope that they end up destroying each other. That would be the most amazing show of karma I've ever witnessed.

So...I just sent her this message on Facebook. I suppose now I realize that it was truly a mistake to ever add her to my page, but sometimes, it's just hard to let go completely...anyway...

Dear Krista,

I don't know why I'm bothering to tell you this, why I don't just go ahead and do it without even notifiying you, but for some reason, I felt the need to let you know and attempt to explain my reasoning.

I think that I have to take you off my friend's list on here, because honestly, there's really no point. It's not as if we talk, and I sincerely doubt you care anymore what is happening in my life. There was a time, long ago, when perhaps we could have been friends, but I think that ship has sailed.

I'm not going to lie to you. It hurts me no end to know that, after all th shit we went through, all the times you cried on my shoulder over how much Renee hurt you and nearly destroyed you, that you're back with her now. It honestly makes me question whether there was ever anything "real" between you and I, or if maybe I was simply filling in until she came around. Either way, it's done and over with, and no, I don't want you back. I never will, and I have never, ever regretted my decision to leave you. Don't for one second think that I am unhappy with my life now, because I have wonderful friends, a great job, and I am perfectly content with being alone. However, having it thrown in my face every time I click on your page to show a genuine interest in how you're doing that you're "engaged" to her just...hurts.

I'll give you a chance to respond to this before I delete you, to attempt to convince me that keeping you on my list is a good idea. Honestly, I was hoping that maybe we could have some form of friendship, because if I miss anything about what we had (and that's a really big if at this point in time) it's the friendship that we had before I moved up there. But, you can't change the past, so there's no point in trying.

If this is the last you ever hear from me, I wish you all the luck and happiness in the world. Take care of yourself.

Sincerely,

Erica

The ball is in her court, I suppose...for a few days, anyway. If I receive no response, then there was never, ever anything there to begin with. Time will tell.