She does nothing but bitch about Stacey, most of the time, and yet I know for a fact that I'm being ignored right now so that she can RP with her. Maybe we're not as close as I thought we were...I really hate that thought, but more and more I'm starting to feel that way. The other night she couldn't talk to me because she was too upset about Michael Jackson's death, but then she went over to Dave's and played video games and stuff with him and his friend Jayce all night. I mean, I realize that I'm not there, but I do my best to comfort her when she's upset. *sigh*
Maybe I should just back off for awhile. She can come to me if she wants to talk, I guess. I won't text her at all while she's away on vacation, if she wants to see how I'm doing or tell me something, she can text me. And now I'm reconsidering going down there in a couple of weeks, because I really don't have the money, and if she's going to act like I don't exist like she has been the past few days...*sighs again* I just don't know what to do.
I feel like this always happens to me. I get close to someone, make myself available to them whenever they need me, and then when I need them, they can't be bothered. Yes, I know there are a few exceptions to this (you know who you are) but for the most part, I usually end up feeling used. Sometimes I really wish that I didn't need friends, because my life would be so much easier without the stress.
Whatever...
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That really...doesn't make sense to me, though I suppose that's because I can't possibly ignore you at all {it's like it's built into me now and I instinctively respond if possible}. Maybe she saw it as if she were to hang out with her other friends and play games she could cheer up, but that doesn't explain why you couldn't do the same for her. Or maybe she wasn't as upset about him as she made out to be? *shrugs*
ReplyDeleteAs for the going down in a few weeks thing, I'd give her another week or so and see if things change. She could just be in a really weird mood or maybe not. If she keeps acting like the way she is, I would seriously consider just not going down {or up lol}; you could always tell her you just don't have the money, mainly due to the fact that you got so sick and couldn't work as much as normal, which is true. If she changes, you could still go down if you have the money to do so <3 Depends on her I suppose, or your final decision of whether it's worth it.
As for the last thing, I know only a small part of that was directed at me but I still like to remind you that you'll always have me, even at 7 am in the morning xP