Feeling a little bit better today, I guess. Or maybe I'm just getting so good at this faking thing that I can even fool myself, I'm not entirely sure. I think the almost 9 hours of sleep last night probably helped my "physical" mood, and that makes it easier to force the mask to stay in place in front of other people, I suppose. Still though...
There's so much running through my head right now that I can't even really keep it all straight anymore. Everything from my past is sneaking up on me again, and it's not helpful that things that are happening right here, right now, are pissing me off almost as badly.
And then there's the fact that I can't go onto a single one of my high school "friends" facebook pages without seeing his comments. It feels like he's just found a more high tech/low profile way to stalk me, and I fucking hate it. I never comment on their pages or statuses because I don't want him to be able to read a single thing about how I feel or think. I know he'd just use it against me, somehow. Grr...
Anyway, time to actually do some work. I'm off tomorrow, thank God...
I'm glad you got some more sleep; you never seem to get enough, so it's great that you got quite a few under your belt today :3
ReplyDeleteI swear to God, if I ever got my hands on him...*takes a breath and calms* The word suffering would be too light a term to call what he would experience if I came into contact with him. I don't usually and truly hate people but I think it's safe to say that I loathe the very thought of his existence