*sigh*

I am really wishing that my day off hadn't gotten switched. I wasn't feeling well yesterday, and now that's just gotten worse. My nose is so plugged up I can barely breathe, my head is throbbing, and I'm just really, really tired. But, I suppose it's only 8 hours and then I can come home and crash until Thursday...whatever...

Just once I would like to spend more than 5 minutes with my parents without them fighting over money. Just. Once. Wouldn't that be a novelty? Take this morning, for example...I got up at 10, just like I always do, came out into the living room to sit and wake up, have a coffee and a nice chat with mom before she left for work, and what happens? They end up yelling at each other about money, screaming about how we're going to have to sell the cars and the house because my dad hasn't had a house to build in 4 months again, yelling at me about helping out more, etc. etc. etc. I'm so sick of it! Yes, I realize that we're in trouble, I realize that we don't have a lot of extra money, but come on! Standing here and bitching each other out over it isn't going to do any good. Go out and find a second job, then! Go back to BJs like you keep saying you're going to! And don't fucking yell at me about helping out and pulling my weight when I've offered on more than one occasion! All I want right now is to have the money to go and see Children of Bodom and Sonata Arctica. After that, I have no real plans until next year. You want me to pay the cable and internet? Fine. You want me to help with the car insurance even though I have my own? Fine. You want me to buy my own groceries? Haha, already do. I've told them that I'll help with whatever they need. I've told them time and time again...whatever. Maybe I'll just start handing my checks over and then begging for spending money...

Someone very near and dear to my heart said to me again last night..."Why don't we just run away?" *sighs* If only there weren't a million and one repercussions we would both face if we were to simply disappear from the face of the planet for awhile. Although, after September...maybe it's time to start packing your bags, rakkaus. Just come pick me up, and I'll follow you to the ends of the Earth and back...

Anyway, time to finish making pasta salad and get ready for work. Oh joy, oh bliss. It's gonna be a longass night.