Lure me into complacency
With sweet, seductive whispers
Promises never meant to come true
Simply tools to break down the walls
So carefully built around my heart…
Blind me to the truth
So well hidden behind kind eyes
Soft lips which speak naught but deceit
Such a clever disguise...
The lure of false hope
Keeping me waiting, with baited breath
Watching for the next move
That single moment when all is laid bare
Then suddenly, with blinding swiftness
You move, almost undetected
Plunging the blade deep into this
tattered, hoping heart, bleeding betrayal
The sick, twisted smile upon your lips
As you watch, mesmerized
The crimson rivers flowing down, hot and thick
to pool at your feet
My mouth opens, silently asking why
Yet I receive no reply
Only silence, deafening silence...
...and then, a laugh, cold and cruel
Ringing in my ears as I fall to the ground
Slipping into the darkness, letting go...
The fallen fool, forevermore...
...I am the world's biggest fool. It's official. I should have known better than to let my guard down at all, but apparently, I don't ever learn. What the fuck would possess me to think that I could actually find someone here who would treat me right? I'm not meant to be with anyone...I'm simply meant to be, physically, alone forever.
I took today off work because, frankly, I didn't feel like going in. I need to get ready for the weekend and people at work are just pissing me off right now, and since I had the time, I thought, "Why not? I can call Robert and see if he wants to hang out since I won't see him over the weekend...it'll be a nice surprise." Little did I know, the joke was on me...I called the number that he had given me to get a hold of him because his cell phone doesn't have any time on it, and some woman answered...I was like..."Well, that's odd, but whatever" and asked for him...she set the phone down and a few minutes later some other woman picked it up and said "I'm Robert's girlfriend, who the fuck are you?" ._. I was so stunned that I couldn't even come back with "I'm his other girlfriend", I just kinda...hung up. Promptly sent him a text saying "Fuck you, don't ever call me again. Your girlfriend just answered the phone when I called you. I don't play games." He hasn't bothered to text me back.
So...I'm done with dating. Forever. No more. I will not have my heart broken again. I'm fine on my own. Who needs the complications, right? It's better this way...
...and yet, I still can't stop crying...
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Looks like someone has their muse back. I haven't seen a piece this impressive in a while. It's full of such...blunt imagery and the pain within it is...almost overwhelming. There's a deep feeling of betrayal that eminates from it. *hugs*
ReplyDeleteI...still can't believe he did that...it seemed to be going so well and...*sighs* As I said, only Scandinavian men should be trusted because every other male on this Earth seems to be a cold-hearted, cruel PIG who doesn't give a shit. I'm sorry that he hurt you...you did not deserve to be toyed with like that at all, and neither did that other girl. I hope she goes off on him about the phone call.
You already know what I would do if I could...you know how I feel...I will get there...even if it doesn't end exactly how I want it, I still want to be there...if only to be close to you...*smiles and hugs* I am here for you